I'm sinking into depression
What luck

i'm too obsessive!
i have a vision of this painting that I want to do
And I won't go to class until I can get the photos all set up for the painting
it's annoying.

Stephen doesn't like to go home because his parent's don't read good books. "They just come home, and do their work in front of the TV." He went on vacation, tried to take them outside, and they just sat by their TV. 

He doesn't like Explosions in the Sky: "Anyone could play them". 

His art class is full of people with Anime desktop backgrounds, their own laptops, and bad posture. 

He didn't touch his synthesizer for 6 months after he got it in the mail, but now he's thinking about quitting his job so he can have more time for creativity. 

Laurie likes to look at people's clothes before she smiles at them. (why?)

Natalie is tired of her roommate's drama. One just broke up with her boyfriend, but is now back together, again. In the middle of this the roommate quit smoking, then started, then quit again. 

Rayanne is "back in the place where I sit on ledges and think about bad things for a long time. High ledges. We can get pregnancy tests together if you want." 

Everyone has a story to tell you. By that I mean that you can learn things from people, if you just listen. If you just listen. 

It sometimes is useful. Sometimes it isn't. 

I have to get it out somehow. 

remember goal

art festival

http://zulmiradesign.blogspot.com/

http://www.artnewsblog.com/

http://www.hazeldooney.blogspot.com/

I need to become obsessed with art again - I want it pouring out of me. 

I don't want my own images in my mind though, I want to chew on another artist's work all day. 

I want to draw like them - I really want a new style. 

I have been trying for a long time to develop my own style, and after making the arts blog thing, I realized that everything that I draw - even the "realistic" stuff has the same feel and same shape. 

I can't quite describe it. 

That's probably a huge challenge in art - describing a specific style. 

I know that my art always morphs along the way - nothing is as it was planned. 

I'm distracted because Im listening to a podcast with Dosh, getting up on new art blogs, 

thinking about a big drawing, watching Raya do photoshop of me, worrying about Sam, and wanting to be famous. 

Things to remember every day: 

Get on art blogs - get "saturated"

Love people with a new love

Take care of my body (eat or exercise at least) so that I can do the things I love

Get in nature

...... pray

there are more. i'll add on later